Well, this is the last entry I’ll make for another week or so. I’m taking a sorta impromptu “vacation”. There’s been a lot of things on my mind lately. I just need a new environment for the time being to clear my thoughts as I try to figure out what’s going on in my life and where I want to take it. Between work, paying bills, and worrying about my friends too much, I need a break from it all.

I know this isn’t exactly the best way to tell my friends, but I hope they’re understanding. This is definitely not meant to be insulting to them in any way. I think we just need a little time away from each other. Hopefully I’m doing the right thing.

I will be seeing a psychologist very soon. Maybe he/she will be able to help me out in some way. Obviously, there are a lot of things in my past and present that are really affecting me and can be damaging to myself, which can then affect others (much like an incident last week in which I lashed out at a friend for something that wasn’t even his fault or a problem). It’s time to bring those things to the foreground and see what can be done to overcome these issues. That’s one reason I need this break.

Change can always been good and I hope this change of pace in life for the next week is just what’s needed. Will things be different in a week? I cannot say. I hope they are just a little bit.

I cannot thank my friends enough for putting up with me for as long as they have. I just wished I took your advice a lot earlier.

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Speaking of bills, someone still owes me jelly beans. 😛